JASON MATTHEW GODFREY - Online Memorial Website
Memorial Website - JASON MATTHEW GODFREY
do the angels cry -when they see us crying...
do the angels really fly?
where are the angels..perhaps the really arent close by.
where are they as i go forward to a place i never wanted to be,
where are the angels ?
do they have a message for me ?
do they really see...do they hear our prayers..know our hopes...whisper in our ears a night ?
or are the angels make believe ,do you think you can tell me ..
do you know if this is true..
would you talk to them for me....
and let them know that there is someone on the other side that is missed more than they could know..
would ask them to take his hand and let them know i am here..
please dear angel if your there..please let him know how much i care.
Nov....15,2007------May 15,2008
A PLACE OF HEALING THROUGH CREATIVITY
ART gives children a voice...lets LISTEN to what they have to say....
Most of you know that WE...CHRIS AND I, have worked our tails off, getting the recently purcahsed house in Old saybrook, across from the high school ready as a place to honor Jason memory and keep his SPIRIT ALIVE.
I am looking now for funding and different programs that I can used as a model to make this dream a reality..
Right now it is set up as a vacation rental and will soon be a Guest House..But, like everything it takes alot to keep it going...so I am being very creative while I take this to the next level..
I am praying with the right connections and support I can make this DREAM come alive...I am looking at the ART FOR LIFE FOUNDATION..as a model that has been in business for the last 10 years and helped 12,000 children....this is a center that helps kids that are going through any trauma or difficult times...the healing comes with the child having a place to share and a place to be creative...HELPING CHILDREN HEAL WITH CREATIVITY....
I BELIEVE JASON IS GUIDING ME ON THIS ONE...
I have had days that have felt like just giving up...But, then something happens and we are able to push forward...
So many people thought that I was out of my mind to take on such a project and perhaps I was at times...But, I knew deep in my heart that this was not about me and making money ,But, something much greater and devinly inspired...
IT HAS BEEN A TIME OF PUTTING BLINDERS ON AND TRUSTING MY INTUITION.
So many people saw that I had found a wonderful commerical property and all the could see was the $$$..Not the dream to keep Jason Spirit alive by giving back....
Each time I was faced with the challenge of people telling me that it would not happen..It gave me more strenght and determination to go forward...
While getting the house up and ready the love and support from my two sons Chris and Todd, and the friends...and family was beyond anyhthing I could have ever imagined...
We still have a long road ahead but , we are on our way.
At times we would need a piece of wood and it would appear in the shed..or to patch a floor and someone would show up with enough hardwood to do the repair..
One day...Chris and I were going to look at beds and I saw this sign free wood..I was just stopping to ask where Hotel liquidators was and I made a mistake and ask the man if he knew where lumber liquidators was..He said why do you need wood...I said always...after we had already taken a few pieces from the same pile...He said oh, come with me and opened his warehouse and told us to take whatever we wanted...a sign perhaps...This wood is now our kitchen floor and sunroom floor ,we could have taken enough wood to build a structure...
Other times...I would think of something and in days...someone would call and say...Oh ,I have this for the house or that.
Yes, it was a very cold winter..and I hate the cold...our oil tank sprung a leak...But, in the grand sceme of things these were really small sticks in our chain...
The house is up and runnning...and we have had our first Guest...they loved it...
The house will also be open for retreats,weddings and family gatherings...
It will always be a place of HEALING AND LOVE...
NO negativity is welcome at out doors....if it comes..it will be turned to HOPE.
I have so many people to Thank....
Jason thank you for giving me the vision...THIS IS OUR GIFT TO YOU.
Joe thank you for putting the mortgage in your name..when I had to many...thank you for letting me move forward when I was told to sell the place...
Pierre thank you for helping me get the financing...I know you worked hard to get this thing going...and it went against what you wanted...
Willaim Soper thank you for being an angel investor....and coming through with the money for the place, it was during a difficult time for lenders...But, you did it.
Chris..thank you for never leaving my side and believing in me when everyone thought I was crazy...The hours that you put in and the quailty of work you did will never be forgotten...When I arrived home one week before xmas, after being gone for three weeks to the house fully painted and the xmas tree and lights up...was one of the most touching gifts I have ever received..The way you worked on such a limited budget and never complained......I know how much you gave up to help me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart....I owe you big time and you will be rewarded...Jason would be so proud of you as a brother..
Todd and Angela...thank you for taking time out of your busy schedules and family to help with jobs we could not have done..You did a great job.....Jason would have also been proud of you as a brother as well..
Vickie...thank you thank you thank you for all the reservation you took and how well you kept my business running so I could complete this project....I would not have been able to do it....
Auntie Kay..thank you for helping Vickie...she could not have done it with out you.....
Vickie for the treasure you struggled to get on the uhaul truck to bring to Ct ...For the beautiful work you did in the bathroom......your support in every way...
Pam and Dj....thank you so much for all the time and money you allowed me to use to complete this project..all the help you provided to finish the project..Your wonderful carpenter Jimmy for all his incredible skills....You are the best friends anyone could every have....ps..I i will never forget our first Ham...for the holidays...or Yummies prints in the paint or stickers the kids put all over the house......lots of great memories..
John and Michele...thank you for all the love and support lending me coffee makers and things to just be able to exist there in the begining...and lending me whatever I needed to finish the job....
Ann thank you....for organizing the cabinets and planting flowers and encourging me ...and believing in me...
Jodi for all the cups of coffee and handling the kids , and running errands...
Adam thank you for doing all the radiators and helping me with the tag sale...
Marco thank you for you friendship and great carpentry and painting skills and keeping us going...
Chrissy thank you for all the great things you sent for the house and letting us have Chris to get the job done...That meant alot to me...Thank you...
To all my friends and family....Thank you for being you and allowing me to be me in a world that is always trying to get us to be someone else...
I love you and thank you all....
The journey for the last 6 months has been filled with love and hope and tons of creativity...We are very tired and regrouping, before we take this to the next level...
I believe you are my angels here on earth....
SO HAPPY 33rd BIRTHDAY JASON...WE HAVE COME THIS FAR AND HOPEFULLY BY NEXT YEAR WE WILL BE ON TRACK TO OPEN THE FOUNDATION.....
WE MISS YOU JAY....LOVE.mom
HAPPY HAPPY 33RD BIRTHDAY JAY....we miss you so much....
I am out of the country and plenty of time too feel..
When I return I will add the pics and more as I feel I can handle it....It just brings back how much I miss him even after these 9 and one half years.
I have been looking a many of the other sites and am so impressed with all of your children..if i do not comment sometimes I am just so overwhelmed...
I would like to add music but do not know where to begin so if anyone can help me with this. I also have many pictures of Jason art work and videos...
I know that this has taken me a long time...But, this has been a very difficult journey for me....one that no one should ever have to take...
We do not have a permenant spot to visit Jason , so this means alot to me and I am sure it will to alot of others..The old Saybrook Library does have a plaque to honor him right under the BLUE JAY...the name we always called Jason.
When my son Chris and I were making the decision to disconnect him from life support I looked at him and thought oh my God.. this incredible being..this strong healthy man that bikes the hills of San Francisco... what can we do?
I have always told my kids that I wanted them to donate my whole body to Yale since we live 20 mins away in Conn..I have Chronic fatique for years and thought if I could help someone some way then that is what I would do...
So chris and I thought you know ,Jason's spirt will leave his body when we disconnect him and his body will only be a shell...we can bury the body, or cremate it..or donate his body and perhaps help others and in some ways his life would not be a waste....
So we did just that...It was only difficult when they told us we could not have his remains back...that he would be cremated with others and his ashes scathered off of the Golden Gate bridge..I then said NO..I wanted him back, a counsleor then said Yvette..his ashes will go into the ocean and it will then be turned rain again to water the flowers so everything will grow again...this made sense to me and I agreed..
The letter I received from Stamford...was that they had used Jason's body for knee and shoulder research...It funny now how many people I run into tell me that are having surgery on thier knees or shoulders..It makes me feel good that in some way Jason has helped..
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So making this site is really the first time I will have a place for people to visit Jason..
Many people came to both of his memorial services and shared so much with me..But, I know that we need a place to visit him...so this like a grave is very important to me..
Oh where do I begin...I have waiting almost 10 years to write this because the tears still fall like rain.....
Jason was born on June 2, 1975 in Norwich,Ct. He was my third son...He weighed 9lbs 3 oz and was a picture of health. He joined his brother Todd who was five and Brother Chris who was 4. He was an excellent baby and very content.
He was very much loved and I was so happy to have him and that he was another boy.
When I brought him home from the hospitol he was so cute...His lips like a little bird...Always in little blue clothing..so we nicked named him Blue Jay.
When Jason was about 5 ,I divorced his father and it really became us against them.That would not have been what I choose ,but people feel they have to be bitter when a marriage breaks up and take sides .So Jason really became distant from his other side of the family. This hurt him deeply and he never understood this.
I met a man Paul , who became the best father Jason could have ever wanted...He loved Jason like his own. Taught him and nurtured him to be the funny caring man he turned out to be.
I will always be forever greatful to Paul.Paul if you ever read this we all "LOVE" you and thank you for giving us the time you did.
He provided our family with love and opportunites we would have never had..
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Jason started to skateboard..I think he was one of the best skaterboarders in Old Saybrook ,where we lived until we moved to Maui. He also became a great snowboarder and spent many winter days snow boarding...
Jason was popular and very funny...so many stories to tell...He could cook up a storm but loved making sushi.
He loved people and always took the time to listen to what others had to say.
I would say one a month he would bring home someone and say...Please talk to my mom..she will listen..But, it was him ,knowing that the person needed more than he could give...
I will never forget the night Jason came home from his friends and put a tape in the tape player...Paul and I were in bed reading...He said , who do you think this is playing the paino? .we of course said we had no idea...He said. ITS ME...he was 13..Paul right then said..Jason if it is ...I will buy you a piano..we were shocked..he never had a lesson in his life...he could just play..and this song is one that he played often..the next day he got his piano.
When I would retire for the night and he was home..In the dark I would hear this and songs that would just come to his head...My heart cries for him to play again...
I have alot more to write...and will be adding lots of pics and a video for the 10th anniversary of his passing......so please stop by..Mark the site and let me know you were there thinking of us..it means alot...if you have pictures to share or stories please share them.
As you know this is opening alot of old wounds just writing this but I feel I must do this NOW. Thank you so much for supporting and loving us during these years...I will never forget the love......blessings...Yvette
Today I added your picture to the wall of Angels of Addiction...
I know Jason that you were injected by Alyson and that she gave her dad the needle before he put her on the plane..I know these things..Tony told me...
I know that you struggled...I know that it was not an easy road..I know you loved her...I understand that...
I have read your phone records ....you tried to call me..I was in Ct taking care of Grammy...she had just had open heart surgery.
You then tried Paul..in Maui..he never answered...so you tried Chirs who was in Tahoe...
So you next choice was Alyson..I know that you wanted her to see your life...Your success..I know this..I knew you well enough...Tony told me you brought Alyson out to put her in rehab...and you end up DEAD...
Oh Jason....at times I am so sorry that I taught you to always help people..so very sorry..I miss you so much..and would give everything in my being to hold you again...Our lives will never be the same..I long for the day we can be together again..
I still can not believe this year is here..10 years without you...it is still a nightmare for us...something that you never really adjust to..
WE WANT YOUR SPIRIT TO LIVE ON AND TO HELP OTHERS..WE HAVE COME THIS FAR AND NEED TO KEEP GOING..
Tonight is the night 10 years ago that we got the dreaded call that you were on life support...Jason...there is not a day that we do not miss you..
This year has been so difficult...knowing it is now 10 years is just so difficult to accept....
we would do anyhting to have just one more day with you..
I am back in the home you so loved..I feel you here and feel at peace knowing you are close by.
JOIN US FRIENDS AND FAMILY AT THE NEW PLACE...1200 BOSTON POST ROAD OLD SAYBROOK.....FOR A CELEBRATION OF FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO REMEMBER JASON.
IT IS NOW 10 YEARS TONIGHT...THIS SITE SHOULD BE FINISHED IN A WEEK..WE HAVE HAD A FEW SET BACKS..SO PLEASE CHECK BACK.
CALL ME FOR ANY INFO...YVETTE 203-444-4477
PLEASE PASS THE SITE ON TO OTHER THAT KNEW JASON...
BLESSINGS AND LOVE...YVETTE